Weekly happenings 5/8-5/13/11

This week has been good for the most part. Hudson is still trying to finish cutting 4 teeth so he has been a little needy and whiny which he never really is. Both boys have not been to interested in napping this week either, which means Mommy doesn't get a break.

I seem to have uploaded my photos in reverse order so we will work the week backwards.
Today Daddy was off from work so we decided to take the boys to the discovery center. I have to admit that it would be a challenge for me to take the boys there by myself these days. Hudson and I stayed in the baby room most of the time which he loved. He was able to climb on any and everything and not get in trouble for it.

Hudson has recently discovered that all of his shoes stay in the bottom drawer of his dresser and he loves pulling them out (he has been doing this for a while now). But this week he has had to have us put the shoes on him-no matter what. This was one of the latest combos that he had to have. Watch out fashion week-this boy is setting new trends.

Over the last week I have to say it seems like the boys are actually becoming friends. I don't hear "BoBo coming" from Austin anymore. They have been playing together and both seem to be having fun.

Austin is a hot mess, you never know what will come out of his mouth. Some of his latest have been:

*"Mommy you have a big bootie!"

*"What are you dressed up for, mommy?" this was what he said to me when I came upstairs from taking a shower and was basically in my pjs.

*"BoBo talking night night" he says this when Hudson wakes up from a nap and is talking, but he really doesn't want Hudson to get out of bed yet
*he has also started thinking its too funny to pretend that he is a robot

*he has been doing really good with potty training and has started pooping in the potty in the last 2 weeks!!!! This week he has been a little "gassy". While he is standing there pee peeing he has been pooting and will say "I not poop mommy, I not poop" while trying too look behind him to make sure that there is nothing on the floor.

*he has also discovered that daddy's phone will play trash trucks (he is obsessed with trash trucks-so Brad has been letting him watch YouTube videos on his phone)

I have really been trying to stop and be thankful for these two little guys and not stress or worry about the small things in life. It is so easy to get caught up in the day to day life of cleaning and what not and not take the time to just play and have fun. That being said~I am trying to find the balance between having fun with my kids and staying on top of everything else in life. I have been trying to stay off the computer and phone when I could be playing with them. I have also been trying to follow the fly lady ideas and cleaning the house a little each day "zone cleaning". My boys will only be little for so long and want to play with me and "nuggle" as Austin likes to say (a.k.a. snuggle). My chores will still be here when they are bigger and I am not cool to play with anymore.

The unthinkable happened....

My Friday morning started out much like every other morning this week. The boys woke me up bright and early and we headed to the playroom to play and watch some cartoons. We talked to Ma-ma-ma and Papa on the phone. Followed by Austin begging for ice cream with sprinkles for breakfast-once he realized that was not happening he moved on to wanting cheese puffs. After going back and forth with him about it, I decided to give in and let him have some cheese puffs. Who cares that its only 7:15am-whats it going to hurt? For those of you who have not been to our home we have a rather steep stair case of 15 steps all of which are wooden and we have hardwoods downstairs as well. We have what seems like 15 baby gates through our home. One of which blocks off the boys rooms and play room from the catwalk and stairs. Well, I headed down stairs to grab Austins cheese puffs (and thought the gate was closed and latched good). I got the bowl out and started to pour the cheese puffs into it when I heard it. Bump, bump, splat (or at least that's the way it keeps replaying in my mind). I knew what had happened. One of my babies fell down the stairs. I really thought it was Austin (thinking he had climbed over the baby gate). But no, when I came around the corner I saw my sweet baby Hudson laying face down on the floor at the bottom of the stairs. I can not explain the thoughts that were running through my head at that moment. It took a min. for him to start crying, I quickly made sure that he could move his neck and legs before I picked him up off the floor. At this point he was screaming ( and i really wanted to as well). I was trying to check all of his body (arms, legs, hands, feet) and make sure that he was able to move everything. Visibly he seemed to be OK. But I wanted to take no chances with my baby. I called my mother in law (as I was still trying not to panic- remember Brad is still out of town) and tried to tell her what had happened (Hudson was still screaming). I didn't know at that moment if I should take him to his Dr's office or to the ER. When I told her he fell down all of the stairs she quickly told me she would meet me at the ER. I hesitated a min. before I made the call to Brad to tell him what had happened. He was in another state so there was nothing he could do. I quickly grabbed the boys and we headed to the ER. We were still in our PJ's (looking back I should have got a picture of Austin in his bug PJ's with his cowboy boots holding his cup of milk and bag of cheese puffs). When we arrived at the ER Grandma was there waiting on us and we were quickly taken to the back.

Hudson was acting fine and seemed to be OK. He started getting some goose eggs that were popping up all over his little head so I opted to have a CT scan done of his head just to be sure that he really was OK. The Dr. came back and told us that there was no sign of anything serious, only some soft tissue swelling (the goose eggs). We were instructed to keep an eye on him and to check on him every 2 hours when he was sleeping. Debbie took Austin home with her and Hudson and I headed home from some little R&R and extra TLC.

Grandma and Austin baked some cookies and brought some by the house and Hudson loved them. They along with Grandpa came by later that night after a trip to ToysRus with a toy for Hudson.

Amazingly, Hudson doesn't have any bumps or bruises on his little body other than a few bruises and one goose egg left on his head. I can honestly say yesterday was the scariest day of my life so far. I truly do not understand how my sweet baby boy is OK. Other than the fact that some one had to be looking over him and protecting him as he fell down those stairs. I pray that I never have to experience anything like that again in my life. It really could have turned out so bad, he could have broken his neck or back or worse. But he is fine and back to climbing on everything he can. We all read about things like this happening to other people and think to our selves how could this person let this happen to there child. I can say now that it happened to us and that we had every safety measure in place to keep it from happening. The only thing I can figure is that for some reason the gate did not fully latch when I closed it-so Hudson was able to get it open. So please, take the time to check, check and double check things just to be 100% sure. Also, take the time to hug and let your little ones or other loved ones know how special they are and how much you care about them, because you never know when the unthinkable could happen to you.

Hiding in the closet

The boys and I spent some time this afternoon hiding out in our master bedroom closet. Have I mentioned just how much I hate the storms this time of year. Since the Good Friday tornadoes a few years ago-I really stress out when we have bad weather. Below are some photos I snapped from my bedroom window with my cell phone of the front moving through.

It seems that the storms come during nap time or at night while the boys are sleeping. Today Austin boycotted his nap and I had to cut Hudson's short so we could hide out for a while.

Thankfully my boys were all smiles (or at least for the most part) and helped to ease my anxiety over the passing storms. Hudson was on flash light duty.

Oh, and he had to make sure that we all had the correct shoes on just in case. lol!

Austin decided to play funny man and take cover under a laundry basket.

I love these boys more than they will ever know and am so thankful for there smiling faces during times like this. Its suppose to be me providing them with comfort and support but I often times find comfort in them.

Sorry for the quality of these photos-they were taken from my cell phone and my hands were a little shaky.

it was one of those kind of days...

Do you notice anything out of the ordinary in the photo below? Take your time and look closely.... Here is another view-this one is a little more of a close up of the out of the ordinary item...

I opened my washer to throw the clothes into the dryer only to find a nice blue balloon had been washed with my towels. Another one of the joys of being a mommy, wife & house keeper~you never know what you will find.

Why is it we moms.......

Why is it that we moms are always comparing our selves to other moms or find our selves competing with other moms? I think we all have days were we feel like we are on top of things, but most days we all spend just trying to keep up. I was talking with a friend on the phone today and made the comment that I often feel like a failure as a mom or like I am not doing all the things I should be. Thanks to the wonderful world of blogging we are able to peak into other peoples homes and see how there life's work-or how we think the work. We think omg she is super mom, she has it together-why cant I do that........

Every time I feel like I am on top of things or might be getting ahead I find myself 10 steps behind again. Since Christmas and Brad being off for almost 2 weeks, I feel like I cant get it back together. I feel like my house is a wreak ALL the time, like I am not playing with my kids enough or teaching them enough. I feel so behind on my duties as a wife-laundry, cooking, ironing. There are days that my husband calls to say he is on his way home and I look down to realize that me and the boys are all still in our pj's and I have not even brushed my teeth for the day let alone my hair. I think that many of us stay as home moms find our selves in the same situation weather we want to tell the world about it or not.

I want to get it back together and get on top of my game again-I hate being disorganized so much and having things so out of control around here. So I am going to start trying to take it one thing at a time and tackle things again. I am going to get out my pen and paper and make my handy dandy notebook and start my daily to-do list again. But most of all I am going to try not to compair myself to other moms who I think have it together.

Hello 2011-New Years Resolutions

With another New Year upon us I have been thinking about my New Years resolutions for 2011. I am hoping to wake up in the morning and start fresh in many aspects of my life. I am hoping to learn and grow from life's experiences from 2010 and strive to be a better woman, mother and wife this year. Of course many of my resolutions are the same as everyone else.... I am hoping that by putting them on here I will be able to hold my self accountable throughout the year and check on my progress.

Myself
-lose weight and start working out again: I hope to start a workout routine that I can stick with and see results with. I plan on starting back on my weight watchers which has really worked for me in the past. Hopefully, between the diet and exercise I will not only look better but also feel better about myself.

-take time for myself-to workout, read a book, blog, catch up with friends or take a bubble bath.I know this will not only make me feel better mentally but will also make me a better mom and wife

-Blog-I hope to try and post at least once a week in the new year. Since I am not scrap booking any more I am hoping to have my blog printed once a year to document our happenings as a family. I hope to keep up to date as much as possible with the blog and not let it get so far behind like it is now.

Mommy
-try not to sweat the little things and remember that my boys will not be little forever and try to embrace the time they are little rather than waste it worrying about things that in the end don't really matter.

-take time each day with each of the boys for some one on one time with just mommy or just daddy.

-be involved more in our moms groups to encourage the boys to make new friends and have social interaction with other kids

-work more on teaching Austin and mini-homeschooling him. He is so interested in learning right now, I need to take advantage of it while he wants to learn

-try to set a date once a month for Brad and I to have a one on one date with each of the boys. I think they both would benefit so much from having time alone with mommy and daddy

-try to keep up with the boys baby books or go back and add stuff to them

Wife
-enforce date night with my hubby. At least once a month go out as a couple rather than a mommy and daddy. Try when possible to have a date night each week even if it is just watching a movie together at home after the boys go to bed

-work to make our relationship even stronger than it already is. Take time to talk to each other daily and know/ try to understand what is going on with each other

-try not to get so caught up in life as a mommy and daddy and forget that we are also a couple and need to take time for us

Home Life
-try to really get organized this year and keep our home and life that way. Make our home run as efficient as possible so that our lives can run smoother.

-meal plan-try to set up a weekly meal plan so that we eat healthier and as a family and don't eat out so much

-budget-look for ways to save money, coupon more, not eat out as much.

-try to get our family involved in church and actually look forward to going

-love our dogs more. I want us as a family to really take time with our dogs and show them the love and attention they deserve rather than just letting them lay on the sofa all day with little interaction other than when we are letting them in or outside

OK that's all I have for now. I know that's all right. Lol. I know that all of these things will not happen over night but I hope to set goals a little at a time and really make an effort to achieve all of these things over the next year. Stay tuned for updates on my progress.

A Mommy Post

OK, so this posting is not all about my children..... Its about me The Mommy! I am having a hard time lately and realize that I am putting too much pressure on myself to do and be everything. It seems like at any given moment I have a million things running through my head these days. I will admit that I am a little bit OCD about a LOT of things. Below are just some of the crazy demands I have been trying to put on myself:

*clean the entire house-I am not talking about just dusting and mopping and doing a little organizing here and there.~I am saying move everything clean around and under it, organize EVERYTHING, clean the baseboards, the walls, the cabinets, the drawers, the closets.
I have to remember that I have two small children and two crazy dogs and that making everything perfect at one time is really close to impossible these days. I would love to just have a weekend to myself to tear into this house and really get some stuff done. But I doubt that will be happening anytime soon since as a mommy you do not get vacation days.

*do every cute creative craft I can find that my kids could do. I am not talking a cute little hand print wreath and a turkey for Thanksgiving. I want to make 15 different kinds of hand print activities and at least that many turkey crafts too. I have to remember that my kids do not care if we do all of these activities or crafts-they just want to spend time with me.

*I want to be the most amazing Mommy and do everything for my kids. I want to give them everything they could ever want and then more. Once again I have to remember that I can only do so much and that I have to let them have there wants every now and then.

*I want to be a perfect woman: I want to have the cute clothes, shoes and bags. I want my make up and hair to look perfect all the time. I want to have my pre-baby body back. I need to give myself credit for the weight that I have lots since having my boys and make realistic goals for myself about future progress. I have to try not to compair myself to other women or other moms (but that's easier said than done).

*create the perfect budget for our family that allows us to have everything we want but not break the bank and actually make it work. I have put a budget down on paper this week so we will see how that goes. I tried not to make it too unrealistic for us. But it definitely doesn't allow for us to have or do everything we want to.

I guess basically what I am saying it I need to find a way to chill out and relax and just enjoy life. But it seems like every time I try that things get all crazy around me. So we will see what happens, I just needed to get this out and on paper.