OK, so this posting is not all about my children..... Its about me The Mommy! I am having a hard time lately and realize that I am putting too much pressure on myself to do and be everything. It seems like at any given moment I have a million things running through my head these days. I will admit that I am a little bit OCD about a LOT of things. Below are just some of the crazy demands I have been trying to put on myself:
*clean the entire house-I am not talking about just dusting and mopping and doing a little organizing here and there.~I am saying move everything clean around and under it, organize EVERYTHING, clean the baseboards, the walls, the cabinets, the drawers, the closets.
I have to remember that I have two small children and two crazy dogs and that making everything perfect at one time is really close to impossible these days. I would love to just have a weekend to myself to tear into this house and really get some stuff done. But I doubt that will be happening anytime soon since as a mommy you do not get vacation days.
*do every cute creative craft I can find that my kids could do. I am not talking a cute little hand print wreath and a turkey for Thanksgiving. I want to make 15 different kinds of hand print activities and at least that many turkey crafts too. I have to remember that my kids do not care if we do all of these activities or crafts-they just want to spend time with me.
*I want to be the most amazing Mommy and do everything for my kids. I want to give them everything they could ever want and then more. Once again I have to remember that I can only do so much and that I have to let them have there wants every now and then.
*I want to be a perfect woman: I want to have the cute clothes, shoes and bags. I want my make up and hair to look perfect all the time. I want to have my pre-baby body back. I need to give myself credit for the weight that I have lots since having my boys and make realistic goals for myself about future progress. I have to try not to compair myself to other women or other moms (but that's easier said than done).
*create the perfect budget for our family that allows us to have everything we want but not break the bank and actually make it work. I have put a budget down on paper this week so we will see how that goes. I tried not to make it too unrealistic for us. But it definitely doesn't allow for us to have or do everything we want to.
I guess basically what I am saying it I need to find a way to chill out and relax and just enjoy life. But it seems like every time I try that things get all crazy around me. So we will see what happens, I just needed to get this out and on paper.